No Sleep = Angry Mama

For the love of all that's good in the world.

We need some sleep.

Or something.very.bad.might.happen.

I don't mind getting up in the morning (the very early morning).  Usually it means I plug in the Christmas lights, get a few toys out, grab my bible and sit on the couch while the wee man plays happily.  Usually this doesn't happen until after 5.

But no.  Not today. 

Today?  Today we started this glorious getting up ritual at 3:30.

Yep.  You saw that right.  3:30.

I nursed for an hour, then practically jumped up and down with the boy in my arms, desperately trying to rock/bounce him back to sleep.

But to no avail, so, at 4:30, we came downstairs, me thinking, at least I can just veg on the couch while he plays.

But, no.  Not today.  Today, he's a crank.  He doesn't want to play, he doesn't want to be held, he doesn't want breakfast, I don't think he knows what he wants, but it doesn't seem to be anything I can offer him.

Me?  I know what I want.

I want to go back to bed.

12 Days of Haydon - July

Photo blogging every day about your kid is a serious time commitment, just so you know.

Also, my kid is seriously cute.  Just so you know.

I'm enjoying this year in review.  Just so you know.

Enjoying a Canada Day picnic with friends.

Waiting for Canada Day fireworks.  I think he looks like a Cabbage Patch Ewok here...

First time sitting in a shopping cart.

Swimming at Nana and Papa's

Our newest and favourite-ist carrier.

playtime in the backyard with friend Cadance

12 Days of Haydon - month 7!

June.

Lots of happy pictures.

Hi.  So glad you keep coming back to see my beautiful face.

So this is technically May and I overlooked it, and how could I not add it...?

hip hip HOORAY!

Hanging out while we do some yard work (fave summer jumper)

first swim!

He had just started sitting up - it was tricky to get him to stay long enough to get this picture

Yep.  We're gorgeous.  Click the video below to see what happened shortly after this precious moment...

yum.

Did I mention I did a LOT of laundry when he was wee?

I am SO glad we are done with the puking stage, 'cause man did he ever puke a lot...

Use Your Words

I've heard myself saying that to Haydon a few times this week.  

We're on the cusp of language.

Before we get there, there is this frustrating time, as his little personality, his STRONG will develops, and he wants..
.but he can't tell me what, or how, or when.  

Frustrating for him, frustrating for me.

And I hear myself say

"Use your words!"

I fee like I, too, am in a place of needing to use words, but not yet having them.

I have come across some incredibly beautiful writing lately. 

Writing that stirs me.  

Word-craft that reminds me just how beautiful carefully placed letters can be.

And I am reminded that I, too, can craft words.

And that this craft makes me feel alive.

And that, maybe, I should be spending more time making my words live.

The problem is - the process of bringing forth life - well, they call that labour.

And - writing - well, it's labourious.

And I'm not so sure this full-time workin', not-much sleepin' mama is ready to use my words.

Maybe not even yet able to use my words.

But, like my son,

 his screwed- up reddened face, wailing in frustration

I think I have things to say.

(for some more thoughts on words, and some stunningly beautiful writing, I'd encourage you to visit

Ann Voskamp's blog 

-  a place I have been truly blessed to discover this week!) 

12 Days of Haydon - May

May.

Mother's Day is in May!

And Haydon's first food was in May.

And I'm sure other good things happened in May but I haven't had the time to mine through my past blog posts and face book stati.

This sling was my mother's day gift.  We like it.
He puked ALL over me seconds after this...

Have I mentioned we like our slings?  This was at church one Sunday.  Mmm.  So cozy.

Victoria Day weekend camping trip with the youth group.  My favourite summer hat.

And, I leave you with a video of Haydon's first solid food...

To quote St. James as we looked over these things...
"I like him.  He's pretty great."

'Tis true.

12 Days of Haydon - month the 5th

April.  

I didn't take many pictures.

Luckly, our talented friend Jeremy Curry did.

(look for more great work from Jeremy later this month...)

These were from Haydon's dedication, April 11, 2010.

our fam at the church

Haydon, with his Uncle Andrew, Nana Smith, and Great-Papa Smith

Ugh, have I mentioned how talented Jeremy Curry is?  Seriously...

I <3 my family.

12 Days of Haydon - March

Ugh, March already?  This whole first year thing goes quick!

March was good.  I started to get into a groove I think.

Also - less pictures for some reason.  Maybe I was busy trying to do things rather than just snap pictures of the boy?  Not sure.

 Toys started to become interesting

My favourite hat and sweater.

Grabbed food off my plate for the first time!

love.this.so.much!